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LINDSAY’S PRIVATE PARTY
This is not cool. Lindsay just looks like her life went to shit. What is the purpose of this video? To show the fun behind being a crackheaded ho. Gimme me a break. Boring….
When I create, my work has a purpose, some kind of message behind it. Maybe this video just isnt for me, I don’t know, maybe there’s someone out there that will take something good away from this… I doubt it though.
I probably shouldn’t even reblog this, but I felt the need to share my opinion.
lately
this has been on my mind lately… well really just you, then today i started thinking. i plan to go to london next fall, and you’ll be in the city, im guessing. thats gonna be tough on us. ive done the whole long distance thing before, so i can deal for a little bit, especially knowing i’ll be coming back to u.
but today u said (after u graduate): i plan to stay up here for a few months to save up. i just figured that would be our time to spend together before i leave, to be spent in the city of course. so im a lil confused and annoyed knowing there are flaws in my perfect plan.
but i applaud u baby. smart decision in terms of getting your life started, but i had no choice but to think, what about us. the summer will come and i’ll return home, as i have been looking forward to hot nites in the city, due to missing all the ones prior to this semester. but u, u’ll be here. then i’ll be leaving… the country.
is there anywhere, a plan for us? im not sure. lately i cant stop thinking about u. i wanna be near u all the time and with u to make me laugh. so its strange to think that i may not experience that joy for a long time once we’re done with this school.
i dont know when or if i’ll bring this up, only because i feel like i already know the answers.
we’re both individuals and we’ll follow our hearts. i just hope that lead us back to eachother.
<3 u huni.
12694.) I really dream of spending the rest of my life with you... You know, have a house one day. You'd pick me up after work. I'd make dinner for you while you watch TV. . . Hide under the sheets on a rainy day, make love til the sun sets, eat breakfast together. Years would pass and as we grow old, our love would get stronger. There's a lot to say, a lot of dreams and wishes i want to come true so, WILL YOU JUST...MARRY ME?
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im sick of doing work, i dont wanna do. but the problem is: i dont know what i realllllly like to do.
im stuck right now trying to do a pathetic 3page paper for my communications law class, thats like a week past due, but i just cant grasp the reading. i understand that i need to pass this class in order to get my degree in communications, but i seriously dont give a f**k about libel cases and how the market theory applies to broadcast regulations. in theory this class is prepping me for a career in film and tv production, b/c i could run into a sticky situation when trying to get permission to shoot sumwhere or sum sh*t, but right now i just cant get it; for one the reading isnt easy, nor is it interesting.
but besides that, i wish i could find something that im really good at and enjoy at the same time. i wanna wake up like “YES!!! i get to ____ today.”
funny tho, b/c i feel like that about editing; piecing together video is fun to me because i enjoy the process and i def have the eye for detail. its just that… well maybe im second guessing my ability. in my non-linear editing class, we’re working on a title sequence project, sounded cool at first until i started hearing everyone else’s ideas. this girl in my class is good in photoshop. i mean photoshop isnt difficult, but for someone like me who hasnt toyed with it for that long, is having trouble getting creative juices flowing.
i feel like im the type of person, who enjoys competition, but only when i cant see what my opponent is working on, odd i know. i just dont like to hear the ideas of others; i wouldnt want theirs to interfere with the generation of my own original ones. it bothers me for some reason. even though this class isnt a game, i still feel pressure to show what i can do, and part of that takes the joy out of it for me.
i know what i have to do tho. just close myself off and focus.
usually i can figure out how to do deal with people pretty quickly, so ive realized those with a really intense energy are exhausting.
im the type person that feeds off of energy surrounding me, so most of the time i try to counter the energy of someone im talking to. im learning the hard way this isnt always the best idea. its draining when your trying to keep someone engaged or balance it all out, so i say f**k it. im tired. im sick of being someone im not. im goin all natural = me.
